I've been the girl standing in the shower, scrubbing my flesh until it is raw. Scrub all you want, you're still tainted. Jesus is the soap you need and His scrubbing is gentle. It is healing, it is loving, and it washes the tainted flesh away.
Ask yourself, does this thought come from God or Satan? If it comes from Satan, then you need to pray and ask God to remove this thought and replace it with His truths. Seek His word and learn what He says in scripture. Hold that thought captive and slay that thought and replace it with God's. Rejoice and praise God for the truth that He is replacing in your life. Slowly, you will see just how each thought, especially thoughts that seem to be on repeat can cause depression, anxiety, and fear!
If you are what you eat, then you are what you think. What are you thinking on? Maybe it's time for a mind detox.
All you see is a mix of colors, some are blots, and some are running together. You can't see what the Lord has painted for you. You aren't meant to. Oh, but why? Because God desires for there to be a connection between you and him. He wants you to come to him and ask for guidance and seek his will.