Sunday is coming

This morning my phone rang at 5:50 a.m. and after listening to to the voicemail, I thought that I would get an extra hour of sleep. Of course, I couldn’t fall back to sleep. I decided to spend time praying and reading the Bible because God obviously knew that I would need the time with Him to see me through my day.

We have a plan and we plan our lives around our school, jobs, family, friends, goals and dreams. We try to live our lives to make our plans go accordingly but what do we do when there is a change that alters our plan and affects our life as we know it?

Today I was blessed with an opportunity to fully put my faith in Jesus, His ultimate will and plan for MY life. A chance to be able to watch what God will continue to do for us. It doesn’t mean that the process is easy because I am still in shock and experiencing waves of emotions. Through my faith in Him, I know He provides everything from physical needs to spiritual needs. I’m still grieving through the changes but remembering that He removes people, jobs, goals, dreams and anything else that doesn’t belong in your future.

Sometimes we feel like we are being crucified by the world. When we are in our moments and are blinded by the trouble days can bring, we can’t see the future.

He has overcome every trial you will ever face and He has gone before you and prepared the way.

Hold on to your hope and your faith because the creator of this world sent His only Son to die for you so that you may have an abundant life.

Sunday is coming. It always does. We may not know what the future holds but I know the one who does. His will is always the best plan for our life. Even on that day, God knew what He was doing.

Sometimes we have to stand as the waves of life crash around us and have faith that God’s plan is in the works of being revealed to better your life.

And I gave my heart to seek and search out by wisdom concerning all things that are done under heaven. Ecclesiastes 1:13

Xoxo,

Hannah B.

For Such A Time As This

I wrote this 5 years ago after a life changing event. I just thought I would share this since we all struggle daily and often wonder why things happen to us. I spent my whole life wondering why about the events of my childhood and family life.

“Every person, every act of goodness & evil, every word spoken, every tragedy experienced, all the sadness & heart break you’ve ever felt & every tear you’ve cried have a purpose. All things do work together for the good of those who love Him & with greater purpose than ever imagined.”

During this time, I saw God at work. He was making all things work together for ME while I was in the most undeserving state of my life. People were very disheartening at this time and did not see any hope for the decision that would be coming. I chose to believe that God would stand by me and carry me through the upcoming trial that would last almost three years. He did just that. Even though it was an ugly and painful time, it was the most peaceful and spiritually awakening moment in my life.

For me, I feel like I’m just down here saying, “Hey God. I have faith in You. I’m not sure why I’m going through this or experiencing this but I believe in You, your Will, and You have what’s best for me in the works.” I have no idea what the future holds or why certain things happen but no matter what is thrown my way, I know that as long as I stand with Jesus everything is going to be okay.

Through this time in my life, this ONE moment in my life, God revealed Himself in a way I never imagined, in a way I’ve never felt. My life came crashing before me (literally) and everything I ever experienced, I knew there was purpose. It wasn’t wasted. Every single moment had purpose. I was prepared for such a time as this and would be wholeheartedly ready for God’s plan for my life.

You are being prepped for your moment. Embrace it because through the storms, our character, our passions, and our purpose is discovered.

“And who knows but that you have come to your royal position for such a time as this?”

Xoxo,

Hannah B.

Not Forgotten

It always amazes me how distracted we can get on a daily basis and forget how far we have come in life. We do our day to day things and have our day to day issues.  Could be a stressful day with work and kids and so much to do and so little time to do it.  Or I just got paid and now I have no money.

Recently, I was watching a documentary on the Oklahoma City building bombing that sadly happened back in 1995.  I remembered that I had written in my journal just a few short days afterwards about how I had felt about it.  I ran upstairs and grabbed my journal out of my suitcase full of all my teenage memories.  Which is pretty fitting considering I moved around a lot as a child.  My parents were divorced and I found myself going back and forth between the both of them.

So, I started reading my journal which only consisted of a few months from that year. I must have remembered the old saying “don’t print anything on paper that you wouldn’t want broadcasted on the front page of a newspaper” Lol. As I was reading, I couldn’t stop.  All these memories that I had blocked out.  I was such a depressed and lonely teenage girl.  I wanted to reach into that journal and hug her and tell her everything would turn out okay.  My day to day journaling consisted of boy trouble, abuse, feelings of suicide and loneliness.I had wanted to have a closer relationship with Jesus but I found myself drowning in depression and anger.

I do remember times of shaking my fists and screaming out to God to take me out of this world.  To make all this go away.  To save me.  I had no mentor back then. No woman to show me what a life for a girl is supposed to be like.  I lived with my father and my 2 brothers most of the time.  I longed for someone to see into my soul how tormented I was.  I suppose I didn’t know how to articulate any of that at the time.  I only knew how to yell and fight and defend myself.  I only knew how to express how angry and sad I was.  I got myself into quite a bit of trouble. Drugs, alcohol, premarital sex. I stopped caring about myself.

I don’t actually remember much of the details of that time; even the events I wrote about, but I do remember making my mind up at some point that I was going to look forward to the future and hold onto that last thread of hope that God was real and what I’ve learned my whole life was true and that Jesus loved me and hadn’t forgotten me.

Now, as I look around at my beautiful house and the peace in this house I see how God did deliver me.  I have wonderful children.  I didn’t do too much in my life in the right order but God still blessed me none the less.  God saw through my soul and saw my pain and He delivered me.  He set me on solid ground.  I may have messed up in so many ways but being the Sovereign God He is; picked me up, dusted me off and pushed me forward.  What an amazing mighty God we serve. And the thing is, I may have just been reminded of  some of the pain I went through growing up and some of the awful things that were said to me or done to me but I’m also reminded that I am blessed and I survived. That I was saved and He did hear my cries and I was delivered from all of it.  I don’t have to feel sad about it anymore. I don’t have to be angry.  I can forgive and I am forgiven.

The annoyances that happen in my day to day are nothing compared to what The Lord God brought me out of so many years ago.

Looking back I don’t even recognize that girl in that journal.  I know that God has transformed me.  He has worked on my heart and has mended all my little holes and patched all those rips and tears.  There may be scars but they are no longer wounds.

If you are going through a time in your life where you feel like nobody could possibly understand what you are going through or you feel like you are alone; I am a living testament that you are never alone.  God does hear you and even if you don’t see his work yet, He is working on your behalf.  It is always in the right time.

He knows perfectly and strategically where you are at in your grief or your anger or your sadness.  He knows what you need and when you need it. He knows when you are open and ready to receive it. When you can lay it all down and get on your knees and recognize that He does have your back you are ready to receive it.

If you don’t have a mentor or somebody to reach out to that will listen and pray for you or pray with you, I encourage you to get out your bible and pray.  I encourage you to find a bible based church to go to and do not isolate yourself. Reach out to other people or your pastor and ask them to pray with you.  You are loved and you are never forgotten.

Luke 12:7- “But even the very hairs of your head are all numbered.  Fear not therefore: ye are of more value than many sparrows”.

Valerie C.

Barin my Soul

Beyond Your Wildest Dreams

The book of Ruth has always been inspiring,  life changing, and has changed my perspective on life.  Seasons may leave us feeling helpless, hopeless, afraid and bitter but through Jesus there is always hope. There is always a perfect ending with God’s redemption. I don’t mean an ending that will leave you with every desire of your earthy flesh but an ending that will be far greater than your wildest dreams could ever comprehend. A soul filling perfect ending created by your maker.


The Book of Ruth – Read the book for the full story

The story of Ruth begins with Naomi and her husband, Elimelech. They left their home due to a famine to live in Moab. Their two sons married Moabite women but unfortunately, Naomi’s husband and  her sons died. Naomi was hopeless. She felt abandoned, bitter and that her life was a misfortune. She left her home full but when she returned she was empty. She encouraged her daughter in laws to return to their families to find other husbands as she had nothing else to give. Ruth was loyal to her mother in law and refused to go back to her home and her gods. So, together they began the journey back to Judah.They arrived in Bethlehem at the beginning of the harvest and Naomi had sent Ruth to the field to glean the left over harvest. At this point, Ruth had been discovered by Boaz. He instructed her to stay on his field and stay with the women as they followed the harvesters. Not only did he tell his workers that she was off limits and not to be touched, he told her to drink from his water jars that the men had filled. Ruth found favor in the eyes of Boaz and she continued to work in his fields until the harvest was complete.

Naomi had decided to find Ruth a better way of life and Boaz was one of their kinsman redeemers. This means that he was one of the next of kin to provide for Ruth since her husband had died. Naomi told Ruth to put on her best clothes and sent her to Boaz. At this point in the story, Ruth has asked Boaz to be her kinsmen redeemer. Of course, he was willing to marry her and instructed her to wait until a decision was made. The elders decided that they could marry and they did. A son was conceived. A son who would be the father of Jesse and grandfather of King David. A family lineage that would bring us Jesus. 


Looking at this story, we are able to see how God worked everything out for the benefit of not only these two ladies but for everyone. Through them, God was able to use them so that His ultimate and divine plan of redemption would be complete. Not only did He  provide their needs in the moment but He orchestrated a plan of generational redemption for all of us. 

Even though Naomi became bitter, God showed great mercy and carried her through until she found her joy again. When we are living in the moment, we are often caught up in the emotions that surround our circumstances. We may find ourselves blaming God for the things in life that don’t go our way, perhaps blaming Him for the loss of a loved one or losing material possessions like a home, car or even a job.  Sometimes what we lose is simply not a part of God’s will and He moves things around to see His plan through. It’s okay to grieve, we are human after all but we must have faith that He is working everything out for our good, every detail, even the ones we won’t see in our lifetime! 

I don’t know what you are going through but I do know that you are deeply loved by a God that curates our wildest dreams into existence using our stormy seasons. No matter what it is, stand with Him, have faith and trust in Him. Whatever the ending is, it will be His perfect plan for your life. He cares deeply for you. When you place all of your trust and faith in Him, He ignites a fire within and everything becomes possible if when you don’t see a way.

Xoxo, 

Hannah B. 

How To Renew Your Life

Haggai was a minor prophet during the rebuilding of the second temple. This was after the Jewish people were exiled from their home and the original temple was destroyed. The people began rebuilding their lives when they returned home and as time went on they noticed their harvest and hard work was not producing what it should be. God used Haggai to get the people encouraged to finish building God’s temple. In the Old Testament, the temple is extremely important because this was God’s dwelling place before Jesus was sent to die on the cross for our sins and sending the Holy Spirit to dwell in us, a temple of the Holy Spirit.

Haggai 1:2-9 This is what the Lord Almighty says: “These people say, ‘The time has not yet come to rebuild the Lord’s house.’”

Then the word of the Lord came through the prophet Haggai: “Is it a time for you yourselves to be living in your paneled houses, while this house remains a ruin?”

Now this is what the Lord Almighty says: “Give careful thought to your ways. You have planted much, but harvested little. You eat, but never have enough. You drink, but never have your fill. You put on clothes, but are not warm. You earn wages, only to put them in a purse with holes in it.”

This is what the Lord Almighty says: “Give careful thought to your ways. Go up into the mountains and bring down timber and build my house, so that I may take pleasure in it and be honored,” says the Lord. “You expected much, but see, it turned out to be little. What you brought home, I blew away. Why?” declares the Lord Almighty. “Because of my house, which remains a ruin, while each of you is busy with your own house.


Have you felt like you have planted much in life but you just aren’t getting enough in return? You have your expectations set high as you start out on your new and exciting adventure but slowly start to feel let down. You may wonder where your job, family, and life in general started going down hill? Maybe you feel like your at a standstill going nowhere? Perhaps you are struggling to find the joy in your adventure that you started out loving. You have poured your heart into your the things that make up your life on the outside but what have you neglected God’s temple on the inside?

God says, “Give careful thought to your ways.” He wants to be first, think of Him and His plan before doing anything with your life. He wants to take pleasure in your life and be honored. When you put Him first, you will be then completely filled in every area of your life and you surely will not be lacking. He will surpass your wildest dreams and expectations.

Isaiah 40:31

But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.


How do I practice this?

I’m glad you asked because I have good news to share with you! At any moment in your life, if you have fallen so far, there is a fresh start for you. If you feel like you are not going anywhere and have lost your joy, just pick up where you left off. Jesus never left.

  1. Have a talk with Jesus. Ask for forgiveness, tell Him about your hopes, fears, disappointments that you feel and tell Him that you are all in.
  2. Make a decision to devote time to spend reading God’s word and praying.
  3. Put this into action daily. Set an alarm to wake up early before everyone else in your house. Get a quiet room for you and God to sit and mediate on His word and talk with Him.
  4. Ask God to make Himself real to you. This is my favorite prayer – I always pray this when I am discouraged and for others if they are feeling the same way.
  5. Sit back and watch God’s goodness overflow in your life.

Matthew 6:33

But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.

What are you waiting for? It’s time. He is waiting for you.

Xoxo,

Hannah B.